it is finally the weekend...

The first full week of school for spring semester has ended, and I sit here with a huge list of things to do...all including random things, nursing, pathophysiology, new testament, christian worldview development, and social movements. Although it seems like it's going to be a busy semester, I think that it will be a good one. I can already see the Lord growing and stretching me and I know that that will continue throughout the semester. I keep looking back on last semester and often I wonder why I had to go through everything that happened...but I know in my heart the Lord had a good reason for it. Maybe I'll never know the reason, but I do know that I have grown a lot. I am still struggling with a lot of bitterness just sitting in my heart...every now and then it feels like I have a huge knot in my stomach or a lump in my throat. I do not know which direction I'm supposed to go in, or what I am supposed to do in certain situations. My spirit is so willing, but my flesh is so very weak. I know that I should do what Jesus would do, but I am so fearful of what could happen...I have built a gigantic wall around me because of what has happened, and I am not sure how to knock it down. I pray that the Lord breaks it down and breaks me of this bitterness in the process.
I also am missing my family. I commuted for all of November and until Christmas break, and then I was home for break...so it has been different being back on campus all of the time. I have been meeting a ton of new girls and I have been absolutely loving that...it is such a blessing! It is just during those moments at night or early in the morning or even during the day when I am by myself that I really miss being at home and spending time with my family...I guess in a lot of ways I really am a homebody.
Through all of this bitterness and semi-homesickness...I really am seeing the hope and the blessings that Jesus has for me. I could not ask for a better family, a better school, a better boyfriend, better girl friends, or a better Savior who loves me as His own daughter.

"Submit therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you." -James 4:7

my first post...

i am currently procrastinating writing a paper. but i decided i wanted to started writing again, so i will start soon!!!

everyone have a beautiful day! [even though no one reads this.]